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c’est fini.

March 30th, 2007 No Comments

Brian’s gone. He packed his San Diego apartment and drove to Texas yesterday in his orangey Honda Element. I woke up at 5am to have breakfast with him at Denny’s before he hit the road. It was fitting. Our first date was in a Denny’s seven years ago. We had milkshakes and I wore brown […]


there is no ish in this over.

March 13th, 2007 3 Comments

sorry for the long absence. I have been so present in my life this week that I have scarcely had time to process it’s events. My heart has changed. I feel different. This change has been happening for months, slowly, organically, transporting and incorporating molecules without my awareness, and I find myself in a new […]


Plan C

March 2nd, 2007 1 Comment

I’ve been neglecting my laundry; I have exactly two pairs of clean underwear left. I’ve been neglecting my puppy; he’s been on only three brief walks in the past three days. There are dishes in my sink that have been there for a week and I’ve been carrying around several letters that I keep intending […]


lonely hearts club loses a member

February 17th, 2007 No Comments

It was a ridiculous 80 degress outside yesterday so the lonely hearts club (chris Schuster and me) went to Pacific Beach and shared some pizza on the sand. This is why I love San Diego. It was like a mini vacation from our lives. Our friendship was born and blossomed in split-screen sadness, each of […]


my efforts are gucking up San Diego streets

January 17th, 2007 1 Comment

Everywhere I drive nowadays I leave little drops of power steering fluid. My car is constantly dripping. In fact, I think that I’m going through more power steering fluid than gas. I took my car into the repair shop this weekend and crossed my fingers that it was a hose that was causing the leak. […]


An accident waiting to happen.

December 13th, 2006 No Comments

I almost got hit by a car crossing the street the other day because I was mesmerized by a sailor in his dress blues, driving by in his Jeep. Ever since I first saw Brian wearing his dress whites at his RTC graduation, I’ve been smitten by sailors. They stop me in my tracks. I’ll […]


something remarkable.

December 5th, 2006 No Comments

I want something remarkable to happen in my life. I am the poster child for living your life one step at a time- for process, for patience and diligence, but I am getting weary. I watched Scrooged and It’s a Wonderful Life over Thanksgiving vacation, and felt a little jealous! Where are the guardian angels […]


this, I cannot express.

November 19th, 2006 1 Comment

Being home. Wrapped in sweaters but still getting a runny nose. Familiar Christmas movies. New wall colors. Same old yearnings. I’m amazed at how even knowledge and years can’t erase the tactile presence of emotion in certain places. The elevator that housed so many hidden kisses, the hill coming into Spokane from the airport that […]


I’m reaching my limit.

October 30th, 2006 2 Comments

It’s been 30 days since I’ve hugged someone that I love. It’s been twice that long since I’ve squezed a member of my family. I’m feeling it. The 10 costumes that I’ve made this month have kept me busy enough not to calcualte these numbers or feel their impact, but with a holiday tommorrow, I […]



October 29th, 2006 No Comments

How grateful I am for both emptiness and fullness, day and night. Salty, sweet, tangy and sour. Mornings of rest and stretching and warmth, and mornings of brash alarms and blurry-eyed breakfast in the car. How grateful I am for distance and yearning and hug-filled reunions at holidays. Tedious shopping lines and the sudden joy […]