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Entries from April 2006

how do you exlpain it?

April 29th, 2006 No Comments

Tonight the whole Hawker family was together! This is really outstanding news since there are three new members to our family since our last gathering. Samantha and Abraham were born, and Ashley agreed to marry (although not “officailly” yet, although she’s wearing a ring!) my strange brother Stephen. It is great to be together. It […]



April 27th, 2006 No Comments

some things that you may or may not know about me (and, may or may not want to know): I haven’t thrown up for over ten years- excluding yesterday. Now I’m old enough to hold my own hair back. =) I could watch Harry Potter movies all day. I’m anxious to succeed, but scared to […]


call it karma

April 25th, 2006 No Comments

I am patient in long lines. I make room for people changing lanes on the freeway. I hold doors open for strangers. I smile genuinely at customer service agents, Wal*Mart employees, and police officers. I give second chances. I work hard. I love with intensity. I don’t do these things for a reward. I do […]


don’t mind me

April 25th, 2006 No Comments

I’m thinking about converting to wordpress (I currently use movable type and am having problems at every turn!)…so please be patient with me…and if you come by to visit and find entries entitled “php poop”, or “seriously now, this is annoying” that are there one minute and gone the next, know that I’m sitting in […]


my studio

April 23rd, 2006 No Comments

I woke up feeling warm and happy, but wishing that I could spend my day in my warm, sunny studio equiped with a record player, fresh fruit, and clean brushes. My studio has a wall covered with magazine clippings, advertisements, and photographs. Another wall has a bank of windows that lead out to a covered […]


and SammyJane!

April 21st, 2006 No Comments

I’ve been working on this since way before Samantha was born and today she turned one month! This is my first attempt at hand quilting, and it’s taking a super long time! nighty!



April 20th, 2006 No Comments

I ran in the dark tonight, and had to stop a mile and a half in because my knee was acting up (gr!)…but the rural streets were so dark, and the night sky so big that it was a treat to walk for a while. I was able to just listen. Running is a way […]



April 19th, 2006 2 Comments

I live in a state of limbo. I’m in love with someone who I’m not dating and is far away. I’m working two jobs that I deem to be temporary, and I’m living with my parents. I’m an artist who doesn’t create. I’m a lover who shows no affection to her beloved. I am someone […]


I always want what I can’t have

April 18th, 2006 2 Comments

My initial excitment at having runner’s knee has worn off (imagine that!). This ailment doesn’t bother me during the course of my regular day, but it does prevent me from training. The first few running free days were great. Now I’m jogging to the mailbox and pouting as I look at the open road that […]


no, i will not make out with you.

April 17th, 2006 No Comments

stop asking.